L.O.S.T and ME

Writing my final words in a place that has meant much to me along the past 14 months...I feel like that flashforward when we see Jack saying: We should have never left, I want to be back. I feel in the same exact way...its not like I´m not coming back or that here is an island that nobody knows where is...but its always different, detachment and moving forward.

Tobi left me a message, he said he couldn´t say goodbuy! haha...its better that way, I would have felt the same.

And now what? an international crisis ... and the sensation that there is nothing in Jordan worth coming back for...you see...I never thought that way, but its happening...I don´t know why I´m pesemistic. I´m not that usually.

Maybe its nothing more than illusions...unfullfilled promices and hope, desire for things and feeling sorry for oneself.

I´m lost, on the break of a new month, year and a new phase in my life.