Tuesday, 18 November 2008
Mi vida otra vez
Las Cuentas de Granada season two seems to be happening soon , and I will be the hero of this series! ... Hmm, I need to become more focused and do something with my life other than lousy decisions and alot of planning.
I practically forgot much during this time, I even thought twice about " Desayuno " word today as if it comes from outer space...Ya3ni , had to think hard twice before I rememberd what breakfast means...
It doesn't matter.
What matters is: I am confused! I need a life-planner! needless to say a life partner.. but too early for that...
Hmm.. I keep singing this song:
Je suis un oiseauQui est tombé de haut أنا طير هوى من الأعلى
Je traîne ma peine أحمل همي
Une larme qui coule دمعة سقطت
j’ai dans la gorge une boule في مجرى الحلق مدورة
Comme une pierre qui roule كصخرة تتدحرج
Y ya esta :)
Monday, 3 November 2008
A farewell to uni moments
Me, I'm fine...I never put sunglasses, I ever thought they were a form of make-up, of making someone something he is not, I don't know why I give this such a significance. Maybe only because today I put sunglasses. Imagine, throughout the 23 years of my life, I finally find it appropriate to put sunglasses. it felt not me, but me is changing. no? Hmm, I decided I simply walk around with it on becuase it is a great way of hiding. Of me not wanting to be myself anymore with people I already knew.
Later today when the class time was dying, an old colleague came to where I was sitting, and was like, hey man, been ages, where have you been? I had the mouse in my hand, fixed my eyes on his and said, well, I've been travelling, I thought you already knew, he was like, do you want to become Ajnabi? Akhh....this ugly conversation, I said, hmmm...maybe, why not, but its not that
actually lets just say that I was a bit busy, he saluted me and left me clicking on the big wide screen..
I love our uni when its late, no body is there, people start to group as a way of putting an end to their long day of seriousness, by exchanging some words and stories of what must have been a day like no other in their lives. A day, and they do that everyday. I like to watch from up where I stand, down to where the big square is and them under, a godly perspective. Fix my eyes on the small details of the square, the big tree the wodden banks. the lovely stairs. you know its more yellowish now, I like to think that some man of significance has been there, has appreciated them. I just want to be connected to greatness no matter the fragility of the connection.
I then go outside, to the bus compound, I put the sunglasses back in my pocket, I obviously don't know how to handle sunglasses. I just purchased some nuts and siseme (simsim) , costs .15 , delecious.. some other guy I know comes and says hi. then leaves in a minute. there have never been anything interesting about our interaction anyway, I then see the bus approaching. I sit next to the window..
close my eyes, and try to sleep, then there is this drift of cold air coming from the outside, it is cold, but I don't know why I don't ask the girl behind me to close the window. maybe she is having a better moment having the window open that out weighs the misery of its coldness....I put my sweater on , and close my eyes again.
Approaching to amman, I decide to read some more pages of "the colonel is his labyrnith" markez, I absoloutely am not sure why I keep on reading, is it because it is Markez and I have to keep on reading? Is it because it prevents me of thinking the same old thoughts that have been roaming aaround in my head for the last 10 years? is this why I'm reading?
I notice we are a minute from the station, I stop reading, and decend from whatever status I was in. I decide then that its time for a cup of tea with milk, you know? I love it when the add extra sugar, extra condensed milk in those plastic cups. I watch things around me, and patiently sip from that cup, keep on going talking to myself. looking at the horizon
could see the two skyscrapers. I realize I don't belong to the creation of this fact. So my eyes hence should try to ignore the scene..Am I that mean?
I take the taxi back home, he is so mad that we are going to where he was just a while ago. keeps on complaining and ufffffing, I keep on shutting my mouth and uttering no words, I'm not interested no more in details. these little details of life. traffic, road condition, electrcity bills...maybe I will start onwards asking the big questions. I always did and want to do that. he asks for 10 p more
I say , less? in the most sarcastic way possible, he insists, more...Ehhhh...that s all I could say to him.
I no longer will say goodbuy , or peace as a way of saying goodbuy, wisdom, that s my new salutation order.
so
Wisdom
Sunday, 28 September 2008
Y aqui estoy...



I should stop stating my status, S.S.S is my new blog order.
There are a number of things I REALLY have to blog about , so I'm just writing now to make a committment about that.
Whatelse, I like small clean airports.
Do I have to write a longer post? No , I just want to say that, I like small clean airports :)
Ok, since I'm not sure about my long stay in Jordan, and how it reduced to 3 weeks Max. , I think I should reorganize my thoughts in regards to the 20 objectives (21) I stated earlier...
1. To get an international driving license , as it was a big mistake that I didn't. I'm not really sure if the Jordanian driving license is valid here in Spain (or the E.U in general).
2. To introduce the cafe con leche in my house , though I'm pretty sure (they've been there, they did that).
3. Since I'm not quiet confident that I will be able to cook a Paella (though I would love to) , but a tortilla española is doable and I should do it with ease...
4. To print at least the best 50 photos (with 10 big size ones) and gift them? (do we say that in english?).
Hmm...Ok, I'm doing this here in Granada airport because I'm 100% sure that there will be some other (prepared) plans for me when I get there (and now the Eid is almost there) , besides, how can you make plans about what you'r going to do when you are in that place, Don't plan too much, Just do it!
Hasta Luego!
Ok, Notes extended:

Tuesday, 23 September 2008
God doesn't play dice...


Monday, 22 September 2008
إلى التاباس ... مرات عديدة
Saturday, 20 September 2008
El canto del Loco - Ya nada volvera a ser como antes
I will never be back like before...
Just another nice spanish song ...
Good luck .
Thursday, 18 September 2008
ستعود وحدك volverás solo
ستمر من هنا
وسيتراءى أمامك
طيف شكلي الذي مضى
وستتوقف قليلاً
هاهنا بعيداً
وتتنهد
Algún día pasarás por aquí...
Y verás como una ilusión el reflejo de mi forma que una vez se fue...
Y te detendrás un momento....
Aquí,
lejos,
y suspirarás
قصيدة كتبتها خلف جبال غرناطة
Una poema que la he escrito andando por las montañas de Granada
Luar Na Lubre - Canto De Andar (Camiños da fin da terra)
EL POETA PIDE A SU AMOR QUE LE ESCRIBA
Amor de mis entrañas, viva muerte,
en vano espero tu palabra escrita
y pienso, con la flor que se marchita,
que si vivo sin mí quiero perderte.
El aire es inmortal. La piedra inerte
ni conoce la sombra ni la evita.
Corazón interior no necesita
la miel helada que la luna vierte.
Pero yo te sufrí. Rasgué mis venas,
tigre y paloma, sobre tu cintura
en duelo de mordiscos y azucenas.
Llena pues de palabras mi locura
o déjame vivir en mi serena
noche del alma para siempre oscura.
Federico García Lorca
Wednesday, 10 September 2008
Reasons...


I’m listening to Collin’s “Least you can do” and resting a bit from the very nice party we just had in the terrace upstairs, it was Martje’s birthday from Holland, her 23rd.
Everybody’s comment that we’re living in a very nice building, some commented that it is like Dracula’s mansion, and I added that I often see a window or a door I never saw before! It is truly like that, our Cuchilleros apartment; I leave you with some pictures (next time!)…
We were a bunch of internationals, speaking in Spanish, English, German, French…etc, it was cool, had a very interesting discussion with Bethany from the states, she asked me first whether or not I observe Ramadan, it was this kind of a situation in which you would want to say yes because it is expected that you should, however, it was a No, and I told here I have no excuse whatsoever why this is so, we also talked about religions and what we like and don’t , she told me how she comes from the Unitarian something church, the most profound part how she told me that she believes in spirituality and (it is Two hearts now playing) how that is fulfilled by her doing good to people and not doing bad, not hating, not stealing…etc, for seconds I thought about what children like me back in the days were told, how we are highly spiritual and others not, how they are confused by their materialism, I don’t want to criticize now, but its just going back to that moment and be confronted with this that made me think like this.
And as I have been doing lately, I told her about my science fiction novel idea, and her reaction was great, she told me she really is excited about the idea, how she thinks its original and fresh, and as always, I felt truly encouraged, now more than ever, to write this book, I have to write it, will I really do it?…
Hence, writing page three, for I have written two pages so far :)

On another subject, I was told today that I could postpone my studies for this semester in Granada and go back and conclude them in Jordan, and then come back again in January for the spring semester, and I am doing that, however, I have been thinking all day long about the reasons, and they are good enough that I want to share…
1- I want to go back to Jordan to finish my studies and get my degree and be freer in whatever I want to do afterwards.
2- I want to go back to Jordan because I am in an urgent and vital need of a feedback of what I have been doing here for the last 7 months, what I did, what I didn’t and what I should do in the future in my second coming.
3- I want to go back because I kind of forget the things that annoy me about Jordan, I have to get annoyed again, this will make me want to change things and will make me remember about my stay In Spain.
4- I want to go back because I miss home, friends and family.
5- I want to go back because I want to learn proper cooking.
6- I want to go back because I want to work in a Jordanian environment, meet some new Jordanian people and friends, and fresh it up a bit.
7- I want to go back to Jordan because I don’t want to spend autumn here.
8- I want to go back to Jordan because I want to give love for the people who love me, and to have a better attitude dealing with them.
9- I want to go back to Jordan because I want to go on a bike trip somewhere in the north, or the dead sea area (Anybody wants to join?).
10- I want to go back to Jordan because I want to read books, Arabic books and understand the blank spaces I ever left blank in my Arabic literature education.
11- I want to go back to Jordan to inspire who wants to interact with me, and to be inspired by what they would have to say.
12- I want to go back to Jordan, because I want to remember how bad our transportation system is, to write about that, to give ideas, to try to make it better, even if in people’s minds.
13- I want to go back to Jordan to realize the kind of problems we are in, to investigate the possible solutions and to try to help as much as I can.
14- I want to go back to Jordan to eat Homos and falafel and foul at Hashem, to buy from reem a mighty shawermah, to buy courageously a zinger from KFC and sit like a teenager in the food court of City Mall, to buy chocolate and dip it in Nescafe.
15- I want to go back to Jordan because I want to sleep an over night at my grandmother’s house, I want to teach her some Spanish words, and to read with her the newspaper, because I want to spend the week end with my father in Ajloun.
16- I want to go back to Jordan, because I want to see the university I left, its students, their ideas and life, I want to give a 15 min lecture on renewable energy related subjects, but I will have to coordinate this, I want to do my research project on renewable energy in Jordan.
17- I want to go back to Jordan so that I could drive my mum’s Toyota.
18- I want to go back to Jordan to play with Omar, Noor, Zain, Khaled, Hamzah my nephews and nieces.
19- I want to go back to Jordan to interact somehow with the Spanish community we have there, through the Spanish cultural center and Spanish language speakers.
20- I want to go back to Jordan, because Jordan is my soul mate.
Monday, 8 September 2008
Ramadan, 30 days of solidarity

Should the post be about Ramadan in Granada? Well, let’s assume it is, although I’m quiet sure I’ll give up describing the situation here in Ramadan, for soon I will realize it is easier if you come and see for yourselves.
Sun sets here around 8.30 on average, and sunrise is about 6.30 on average as well, a long time as you might have guessed, plus, about 10 000 Muslims live here, which makes them about 1.25% of Granada’s population, not that much, which means that everyone is out there midday enjoying food and drinks, ice cream, and snacks. How do I personally feel? I feel an absolute nothing, it doesn’t matter at all that they are eating, and it doesn’t make me feel stronger or weaker, it just reminds me that I’m fasting, and nothing more. I guess this is how Muslims feel here as well.
Today I went to the Friday prayer, was questionably early, to be honest I thought it was at 1.30 but it turned out to be at 2.18, and I liked that I came early, was the third to get into the mosque, to sit in front of the Mihrab and contemplate a bit, so what was I thinking about? Many things, how much I love this city, how much I feel lonely in these days, with practically no one around, how I finally experienced total and absolute freedom but not quiet sure that it is what I thought it would be, I thought about these times I sat next to the Rio Genil and how I didn’t weep, thought much did I feel like it, how much I feel wrong, and how much I want to change things in Jordan, I suddenly decided that I need to be called to form the next cabinet, I even was about to pray for God for me to be the next prime minister, or the minister of planning, but then I stopped and thought I should pinch myself and plan my life before that of other’s.
I belong, to the tears I shed before I sleep…
To the fear that draws my life and illusion…
To the dreams that have forsaken me …
To the toil that have made me realize…
How fragile is my being, wrapped in emotions…
Alhambra is overlooking Granada down under, opposite to where we are, and we are under the sun of the 5th of September 2008, praying, together, kneeling, bowing, and sincerely devoting our moments in that mosque to the high-being, to Allah. I look around, and I like what I see, it is a very beautiful mosque that was inaugurated five years ago, new, clean and luminous, with astonishing touch of Granada’s Islamic architecture, women’s prayer room is on the same plane separated by a wooden fence that allows both to see indistinctly the other, and believe me, nobody was occupied with that thought. I see Spanish ,Arab (mostly Moroccan) , and some African Muslims, some were with ear piercings, some had “inappropriate” hair cuts, but they were praying, they were like me and everybody, and I liked it.
لا أريد النوم، فأنا لا أعرف ماذا سأفعل بعد أن أصحو، ومنذ قررت أن من الموبقات الصحيان بلا معرفة ماذا سنفعل في يومنا ذا، قررت أن تتعدد الأسباب التي توقظني كل يوم،ولكنني، هاهنا، لا أعرف ما سأفعل غداً، وبعد غد، وبعد بعد غد، ربما حان وقت السهر، بالساعات الطوال والأيام.
كان الشهر هذا فاصلاً اجبارياً في حياتي، في مواجهة نفسي، وبعيداً عن المعاني التي أعرف، فأجد نفسي وحيداً هنا في مدينة هجرها بنوها إلى عوائلهم و ضيعهم، وعدت أنا اليها كالابن الضال، بل وأكثر ضلالاً من ذي قبل. عدت إلى مدينة يتوافد إليها السياح من كل مكان، يحاولون فهم ما لم أفهم في ساعات وأيام قليلة، أنظر إليهم، وأداعب خيالي بما سيتقولون عن جولتهم لما يعودون إلى روافدهم، أنظر إليهم وأراهم كدمىً تتجول بوتيرة متوقعة تملأ النواحي الساكنة ضجيجاً لا داعي له، ربما هي الغيرة التي أشعر بها، أنني أود جداً يا حضرات السياح أن تكون بينكم تلك المجموعة التي تعنيني، لأرشدها إلى ما لا تعرف، في نواحي غرناطة وشوارعها، أن تملأ الأرجاء بصوتي وصوت أحبتي ، وأن نجتاح المدينة بالابتسامات والكلام العربي الذي أفهم، سئمت يا أخوتي من ابتساماتي المصطنعة في وجه الجميع، كضرورة حيوية لعنصر آدمي آخر، ولا أريد الامتعاض أيضاً، أريد فقط، أن أقهقه كما لو كنت أمام ممثلين خفيفي الظل، أنتم جميعاً، يا شأن غرناطة مثقل الكاهلين، لا تعنونني بشئ، أراكم ملوثاً بصرياً، وسمعياً و همأ على القلب.
ماذا لو تحولت إلى نبتة؟ إلى شجرة باسقة ، خضراء و حقيقية[G1] . أين كنت لأزرع نفسي؟ يخيفني التفكير في عدد الاحتمالات، و يخطر ببالي أن هناك الكثير من الأرض التي لم أزر، فكيف أستطيع معرفة ذلك؟ ...
ثم أستيقظ صبيحة الأحد، بعد ليلة حافلة بالسهر والرقص في كهوف ساكرمنتو وبارات شارع البيرة، كنا حوالي عشرة أشخاص، وانتهى بنا الأمر ثلاثة اسبان وثلاث هولنديات وحضرة جنابي، ولعبنا هذه اللعبة، (لم أفعل هذا قط) ، وفيه يقول أحدهم ما لم يفعله قط في حياته ، ومن فعل يشرب، ومن لم يفعل، يمتنع (لا تقلق إن لم تفهم اللعبة، فقد فهمها بعض الاخوان بعد ثلاث جولات) ، المهم، اكتشفت أنني لا يمكن أن أكون صادقاً أبداً ، كما لم أكن يوماً ، ولكنهم (يزقون قوي) باتجاه المواضيع الجنسية دائماً ، إلى حد تتساقط معك كحبات الشمع الذائب كل حواجز الحرج ، فقررت الصمت ، سكن تسلم!
أعود للقول، استيقظت منتصف نهار الأحد، يوم طويل و منعش الحرارة من أيام أيلول، وفجأة قررت التنزه والمشي طويلاً خلف الحمراء، لطالما أردت أن أستكشف المنطقة، أن أعثر على مخطوط أثري أو خاتم سلطاني...وقد مشيت كثيراً وفكرت أكثر، وكتبت بعض الكلمات على قصاصات الورق، أقفز عن الطريق كلما سمعت أصوات الدراجات الجبلية تئز من أعلى التل، وأستقبلهم بابتسامة عريضة معلناً أن (بوينا: الطريقة الغرناطية الكسولة في قول بويناس تاردس، مساء الخير)، وقررت أن أعود المرة القادمة بدراجة هوائية.
الجبل كبير، وذكرني إلى حد ما بغابة برقش، بوعورة طرق مزرعتنا في عجلون، وذكرني بصغري المفرط أمام هذه العظمة.
من منكم أراد زيارتي ، فليستعد للمشي طويلاً وبالنزول من على الجبل إلى النهر، سنجلس هناك أمام الساكرمنتو والبيازين ونتحدث عن هذا العالم من وجهة نظر السلطان.

Sunday, 31 August 2008
Queda Prohibido
Queda prohibido llorar sin aprender, levantarte un día sin saber qué hacer, tener miedo a tus recuerdos... Queda prohibido no sonreír a los problemas, no luchar por lo que quieres, abandonarlo todo por miedo, no convertir en realidad tus sueños... Queda prohibido no demostrar tu amor, hacer que alguien pague tus dudas y mal humor... Queda prohibido dejar a tus amigos, no intentar comprender lo que vivieron juntos, llamarles sólo cuando los necesitas... Queda prohibido no ser tú ante la gente, fingir ante las personas que no te importan, hacerte el gracioso con tal de que te recuerden, olvidar a toda la gente que te quiere... Queda prohibido no hacer las cosas por ti mismo, no creer en Dios y hacer tu destino, tener miedo a la vida y a sus compromisos, no vivir cada día como si fuera un último suspiro... Queda prohibido echar a alguien de menos sin alegrarte, olvidar sus ojos, su risa, todo porque sus caminos han dejado de abrazarse, olvidar su pasado y pagarlo con su presente... Queda prohibido no intentar comprender a las personas, pensar que sus vidas valen más que la tuya, no saber que cada uno tiene su camino y su dicha... Queda prohibido no crear tu historia, dejar de dar las gracias a Dios por tu vida, no tener un momento para la gente que te necesita, no comprender que lo que la vida te da, también te lo quita... Queda prohibido no buscar tu felicidad, no vivir tu vida con una actitud positiva, no pensar en que podemos ser mejores, no sentir que sin ti este mundo no sería igual...
It is forbidden...
It is forbiden to cry without learning,
to wake up one day not knowing what to do,
to be afraid of your memories.
It is forbiden not to smile at problems,
not to fight for what you want,
to abandon everything because of the fear,
not to transform your deams into reality.
It is forbiden not to show your love,
to make someone pay for your debts and the bad humor.
It is forbiden to leave your friends,
not to try to understand what you lived together,
It is forbiden not to be yourself in public,
to feign with people you don't care about,
to fake being funny just to make them remember you,
to forget all the people who love you.
It is forbiden not to make things by yourself,
not to believe in God and forge your fate,
to be afraid of life and its engagements,
not to live each day like it was a last sigh.
It is forbiden to miss someone without
cheering, to forget his eyes, his smile,
just because your paths stopped being embraced,
to forget his past and paying it with his present.
It is forbiden not to try to understand people,
to think that their lifes are more valuable than yours,
not to know that each one has his way and his happiness.
It is forbiden not to create your history,
not to have a moment for the people who need you,
ot to understand that whatever life gives to you, it takes it away as well.
It is forbiden not to search for your happiness,
not to live your life with a positive attitude,
not to think that we can be better,
not to feel that, without you, this world wouldn't be the same.
Wednesday, 27 August 2008
What am I doing here?
I don't know! was, is, and will be the answer, but I am not complaining, I like it, absolute freedom, in a city that I bonded with, well enough, to know that I can confidentely call myself GRANADINO.
Going to the modern languages center in the morning, getting my everyday spanish drill, and then do the ever evolving pasta with new additives, enjoying a siesta in the 35 degrees outside weather, hitting the gym in the early evening, and joining whomever for a tapas in the night. Complicated life reduced to simplicity...
Of course I'm quiet annoyed about several things:
- For a long time now , I didn't read a book , the last was "the witch of portbello" by Cohello, I bought the book in Stockholm for the mere reason of wanting to know if my credit card works, it did, and I read the book, hmm...wasn't really impressed, but who am I to give an opinion now? I need to read a book 3 times before I fully understand it.
-My spanish seems to have stuck with some words, vocab and expressions, but I'm not learning 10 words a day as it was in the beginning, maybe less than a word a day these days. Of course I'm growing more confident speaking the language, but thats such a flase feeling.
- I'm afraid to say so, but I'm really used to the city, I walk in it like a professional driver, means the chances are I have more sense about the city and its logic than I do about Amman for instance. An idea hit me lately that I need to live in some new places in Jordan, I always wanted to live in: Wadi al kamar - Rum , Dana , Ain Jana, Aqaba. I might very well do, really?
Talk to you soon , maybe in five minutes!
Monday, 25 August 2008
Christophe Willem - Double Je subtitled
Haha, saw this again subtitled.
And it is me, pretty much, and most of us, as well.
Tuesday, 19 August 2008
A message from a friend!
So you've completed your epic journey... merely a prologue to the adventures to come i'm sure.
So now that most of europe has been ticked off of your list do you find yourself back in Granada?
I'm currently sitting in the University Library after having completed one of my two scheduled re-sits which have proved such a heavy burden over the last few weeks. I might have got a pass by answering a question which came to me like a flash of light in the dying minutes of the exam. It seems that Mr. Brain didn't let me down after all.
It's good to hear from you again, I wasn't sure whether to messege whilst you were the 'manual labour' in sweden. I was afraid that you might have been kept in a shed without internet and worked to inhumane levels. I trust this wasn't the case though, and you had a beautiful time.
I have to thank you for your message and gift which was awaiting us in the morning of your departure from Krakow, It was a pleasent surprise AND an opportunity for me to learn more about Jordan! Needless to say, I was a happy boy.
As I had such an important exam this morning I felt the only true way to prepare would be to stay up late and watch a movie. So I settled down for the 2.5 hours that make up one of the most visually pleasing, impressive and awe inspiring films I've ever seen. "2001: A Space Odyssey". What a good film... made 40 years ago and still has a lot of power. If you've not already seen it I can only hope to nudge you in its direction. As a aspirational science fiction writer I would suggest it's an important science fiction film.
So life has twisted your arm and got you into doing unsavoury things? I knew the day would come when you had smoked 15 cigarettes. I'm sorry it was so soon. What have you planned for your quiet two weeks? Reading, eating, cooking, philandering, partaking in some mischief and debauchery?I hope that whatever it is, you enjoy it and I look forward to hearing the plans!Hope this finds you well,Rich
Sunday, 17 August 2008
One chapter ends
At no cost should a human being not consider travelling (varied forms) as a life essential, it is just as the importance of reading a book, eating good food, and playing sports.
I find it hard to summarize what has been an intensive experience, that left me too little time to look back at each of its stages, but however, was profound enough not to let me forget the details, and that made me someone more curious about the magic of life and living in it.
From my childish happiness by the massive (Zapokani) toast/sandwich in the old Jewish quarter of Cracow-Poland, and being in an urban race with two Canadians to discover the secrets of the city of Cracow through 14 questions to the sleepless night at the ship that took me from Gdansk in northern Poland to the shores of Sweden at Nyshamn, and then the wonderful ride that left me mesmerized through the Swedish landscape…
Working in a farm near to Stockholm for two weeks, brushing wooden posts and walls, painting, cleaning, fixing posts and building a protective wooden support, and then finishing around 6, enjoying a lovely dip in the Baltic sea a Km away, enjoying meat balls with blueberry…
Lived as if I was on a channel, and someone was flipping them…having to salute people, and say goodbyes to them a short time after, to switch from one style of life to another, from university dormitories to living in a farm, then to a residence few meters away from the sea.
Rome was fantastic, was very hot though, was very chaotic and sometimes dirty where one would expect it to be clean, but it was Italian, it was Pizza and Gelato, it was fountains and fashion…I loved it. And then to the south, where I spent a week with some European friends back from Granada, a full week of relaxation, going to different beaches and eating wonderful food, it was a blast!
I should have definitely written more often on daily basis, but I will try to write some interesting things from now on (when I have a stable internet connection!)
Quick thoughts:
-My heart is with Aisha, the Somali girl I met in Milano airport; I was going to Cracow, and well, she didn’t know where she was going, she showed me her printed ticket that showed she was going to Germany, however, she didn’t know, she asked me what time she should be sitting where, I tried to speak to her in English, French, Spanish and finally Arabic, however, not a single time did I feel she understood what I was saying, I told her to stay where she is (she was next to the right gate), and to wait till she sees a new crowd and go with them.
Aisha, no matter what it is that brought you to that place, I wish I could do more, and I wish this world starts making more sense to you at some point.
-Stockholm, an amazing city, with no internet! I literally couldn’t find any internet café in that city, however, something about the Swedes, they have something called FIKA; meeting in a coffee shop to drink coffee and biscuits with a friend, after having heard that….finally, I found a name for my favorite hobby, A good cup of coffee with chocolate or biscuits>>FIKA!
-God bless cheap airline flights, for without them, I would have gone no where.
-Don’t get fooled by a clear sunny day in the Swedish summer! For it rained like crazy in my last two days in the farm, something I’d only witness one or two times in January in Jordan!
Well, more next!
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Friday, 11 July 2008
To whom it might concern...
Well, just so that things are clear :)
Enjoy other blogs meanwhile!
Salam!
Leaving you, Granada, not for so long!


So I had to see some other places, I'm going to Poland, Sweden and Italy. Hopefully when I go back you'll still be the same, please don't forget to remind me of Ramadan this year, and please don't get too cold too early, I really I'm sorry for the mess tourists have made in the previous months, but I'm sure in autumn you'll be all fine and nice again.

Thanks for the not so hot summer, and we really need to do this Sierra Nevada trip when you have some snow on top of the mountains..
Love you , take care....
Thursday, 10 July 2008
If I am ... I can never become
If I become something one day, it´ll be easier to come here and quote me on some things...
Ok I´m a looser , anyway.
If I am , I can never become...
It sums up many things I go through, people asking me to say something about me, where I am , what I do, what languages I speak, where I have been , whom I have met, who are my friends...etc , it doesn´t make sense at all. all of these things change , and I´m finding it hard to answer any. I don´t want to be stuck with some answers, and when I grow up , people tell meÑ you changed! as if I shouldn´t...Just like the other day with Raffy in Milano...she thinks I changed because I told her I tried some drinks, but I did that because it felt right, and I don´t think its wrong to change, even in directions where we still think it might not be ok, isn´t this what discovering is all about?
Now Im 23 and Jordanian, later I will be 33 and maybe indian, who knows?
From now on, nobody asks what I am , just ask me things I can answer...which is basically not asking me at all !
Paz..
مقالة من الرأي الثقافي
Moody
Strange, and it'll even get more complex.
Life is an adventure....Get a sleeping bag!
Once upon a midnight dreary, while I pondered weak and weary..
God bless who passionately invest in themselves...for when they do , we all benefit.
This stupid post should not be posted >> click!
How things get nasty..
They are a couple. and now they are telling me to pay for this and that, we have a ceramic basin that has literally a " tiny crack " , and she said she'd have to get a new one for 60 Euros. WHAT?
That I have more than shower a day and should pay more. WHAT?
She is not happy about me leaving my bag until I come back (Which should be no problem as I am renting another flat of the ones she rent).
And my worst far is that she'll tell me to wait for some time before she puts my money in the bank, which I definitely need for my travles the coming month...
Shit, why does this have to happen at the very end?
A life experience? I'd do better without some shitty ones...
Wednesday, 9 July 2008
A veces me encanta todo eso...gracias
Voy a reservar todo eso, y lo pongo en un jarrón, y ahora estoy pensando que la memoria tiene que tener un espacio especial por estos momentos…porque estos son los momentos que recordaré años después.
Tenía sed y he bebido, tenía hambre y he comido, tenía ganar en todo lo que estaba enfrente de mí.
¿Como puedo olvidar eso?
Jamás…
Jordan life, the spanish way
Dokannit Abu Tarik = Spar super mercado
Jabal Al hussein = Calle recogidas (to do shopping)
Slash el dwar el 3 = Gellati di roma (70% increase in the price though!)
El ba7ra , Dead sea = Costa del sol (1 hour from Granada on the Mediterranean)
El 7allag 3a ras el shari3 = the morrocan pelqueleria on Calle Alveria
Sa7bi Ehab = Sa7ibti Maria
Sa7bi Fadi = Sa7bi Luca
AIESEC LC Amman = AIESEC LC Granada
Jabal el kal3a = Alhambra palace
Shawermah Reem = Doner Kebab 1 min away
Dinar = Euro
Plans to go to Syria = Plans to go to Portugal
Plans to go to Lebanon = Plans to go to Italy
A car drive = A long walk
Going out, coffeshop, fast food, mall, drive = Going out, tapas bar, tapas bar, tapas bar, a walk!
Ok, and I can go on and on!
Tuesday, 8 July 2008
Things




Sunday, 6 July 2008
كان عليه أن يقطع بعض الثوم و البصل، وكما جرت العادة في السنة الأخيرة، فكر بأن عليه الاتصال بجدته ليسألها عن حالها، وعن طريقة تحضير ورق العنب، فقد سئم اعداد المعكرونة منذ أمد ليس بقصير. ز
يخرج قالب الثلج ثم يضربه على الطاولة في طريقة لطالما اعتقد أنها بدائية لاستخراج مكعبات الثلج، وتتناثر بعض المكعبات على سطح الطاولة ، وبعضها على الأرض، شعر بالمهانة ازاء كل هذا العناء الذي يستلزمه تبريد كأس من الماء. وبعد أن يلتهم اللقمة الأولى ، والثانية، يدرك أن الباستا ليست مطبوخة كما يجب، هو ذا شعور أكل قطعة من البلاستيك يعود إليه، ويرثي حاله بصمت. ز
ستة، ثمانية، سبعة، سبعة، واحد ... ستة، واحد، صفر، أربعة ، أربعة ... ستة، أربعة، سبعة، سبعة، ثلاثة ... ستة، خمسة، صفر، ثمانية، ثمانية ... يدون هذه الأرقام على دفتر الملاحظات المتروس، ويترك فراغاً معقولاً تحتها، ثم يرفع سماعة الهاتف، ويبدأ بتلك الأرقام التي تثيره احتمالات الاتصال بها . ز
متحدثاً بتلك اللغة الغربية الغريبة: مرحباً! كيف الحال؟ بخير شكراً، أنا جورج واتصل بك من مركز المدينة، رأيت لتوي الاعلان الخاص بالشقة ، قد قرأت المواصفات و أعتقد أنها تناسبني، مذكور أنها بثلاث غرف نوم أليس كذلك؟ نعم نعم، وواحدة ماستر، عظيم، اذن هل يناسبك قدومي تمام التاسعة؟ حسناً، شكراً وإلى اللقاء! ز
أغلق ساعة الهاتف، دون ساعة اللقاء، ثم عاود الاتصال مرة أخرى... ز
مرحباً! كيف الحال؟ بخير،أنا نور وأتصل بك من مركز المدينة، رأيت لتوي اعلانك الخاص بالسيارة، وودت معاينتها شخصياً والقدوم للزيارة. نعم، وهل هي مفحوصة فحصاً شاملا؟ اها..نعم..اذن هل يناسبك ان جئت اليوم؟ ان قلنا تمام السابعة؟...السابعة والنصف. ممتاز، والعنوان من فضلك؟ نعم ، نعم.. بجانب السوق الكبير؟ اها... تمام اذن! شكراً..مع السلامة. ز
مرحباً! كيف الحال؟ اسمي بني وأتصل بك من مركز المدينة، قد وجدت الاعلان عن الجيتار الآن وأردت مزيداً من المعلومات...نعم، أعتقد هذا أيضاً، من الممكن زيارتك اذن، متى يناسبك؟ اها...وماذا عن الخامسة؟ ... الرابعة؟ جيد، لا؟ رائع، نلتقي هناك اذن...سلام.ز
بقي هناك رقم واحد، وأخذ يفكر أن الساعة السادسة هي الأنسب للقاء. كانت المكالمة عادية، عن تأجير غرفة، والسادسة والنصف كانت الساعة الأنسب. كان الموعد التالي في نفس المكان تقريباً فما كان من مشكلة، دون بعض المفردات الجديدة وقرر البقاء قرب صندوق الهاتف، بعيداً قليلاً رأى حائطاً ذا أوراق ملصقة بعشوائية، أركى ظهره على الحائط ومد قدميه، وبصره يحلق حول المكان، هذه الساحة وهؤلاء الذين يجيؤون ويذهبون، هذه الظهيرة طويلة الأمد... ز
أعاد فتح الورقة، وبجانب كل هامش كان قد دون عليه العنوان، أخذ يكتب الأعذار... لم لا تناسبه الشقة ولا السيارة، ولا يعجبه الغيتار ولا الغرفة. وعلم أنه لن يستطيع البوح لهم بسر زيارته، هو يريد فقط أحداً يتحدث اليه في هذه المدينة الغربية الغريبة. ز
Friday, 4 July 2008
شيئ من رحلة

بدأت بياتريز حملة تنظيف الشقة حوالي العاشرة، وقد استعضت عن حمامي اليومي بشمشمة روائح الصابون وطقطقة الأواني في المجلى وطبعاً توقعت أننا سنتحدث عن ما هب ودب هذا الصباح، وهذا ما حدث فعلاً...لكنني أحب تواجدها في الشقة، أقوي اسبانيتي، أتعلم كل يوم شيئاً جديداً عن سوق شعبي هنا أو هناك ، وربما تنزل لي صحناً من الشوربة

ميلان مدينة ضخمة، مدينة الموضة والأزياء، مدينة الجيلاتو والميلانيسا. شعرت فيها بصغر حجمي وقدرة فهمي لتفاصيلها اليومية، ولما جاءت رافاييلا انتزعتني من جو التفكير هذا. كم جميل أنا بقينا أصدقاءً! ، بعد أربعة أعوام، نلتقي في بقعة بالغة التحديد، نشعر ببعض القلق، نترقب، نتساءل، وتتسامى كل اضطرابات التفكير هذه بمجرد رؤيتنا لبعضنا، تشاو! تشاو

قالت لي أن هذه هي مدينة الشغيلة في ايطاليا، مدينة يعمل فيها الناس فقط، مدينة باهظة التكاليف، مختلفة عن الجنوب الايطالي، بجاداتها الواسعة و شبكة معقدة من الحافلات والترامات و شبكة الأنفاق الأرضية تشعر أنت كما الكترون خاطف في دارة كهربائية ، تسير مع التيار وتكمل دورة الحياة كيفما اتفق. لفتني وجود الكثير من العرب هنا وبالأخص من المصريين، لا أعرف كيف جاؤوا ولا ماذا يفعلون، ولكنني شعرت بشيئ من الدفئ لما نادي أحمد على حسن

بعد ميلان كانت بيرجامو، مدينة تبعد ساعة واحدة عن ميلان، استرعي انتباهي فوراً مدينة تطل من على مرتفع، هي ال (شيتا ألتا) المدينة العلوية، مركز المدينة القديم ودرته البعيدة عن ضجيج الحداثة، كان ذهابي إلى هناك بأسرع وقت واجباً في قسم الرحلات، استقلت الحافلة ذات الخط 3 التي حملتني إلى هناك، في الأعلى، حيث يقطن تاريخ وتروى حكايات...دخلت المدينة من بابها الجنوبي، قوس حجري وطريق معبد بالحجارة، نقطة الوصول كانت البلازا التي نسيت اسمها الآن! ولنسمها بلازا المركز، هناك، ساءني أني لم آت بصحبة أحد، فرافاييلا بعملاها في الراديو ولا أعرف أحداً غيرها، نظرت من حولي ولمحت شاباً في أواخر العشرين كما بدا لي،استقل معي الحافلة من النزل، ذهبت اليه وسألته بعض الأسئلة التي أعرف اجاباتها، ثم عرضت عليه أن نتجول معاً ! أحسست بنوع من الغرابة لكنني فعلاً لم أود أن أصطدم به في كل مكان دون أن أستفيد من وجوده. تجولنا في كل مكان، شربنا الاسبرسو وأكلنا الفروماجو (فطيرة جبن)، هو ذا أبوين من الأرجنتين ويعمل مقدماً إذاعياً في باريس في إحدى الاذاعات الشبابية، التقطنا بعض الصور، وودعنا بعضنا في اليوم التالي...كم جميلة صداقة الساعات، تنتهي كما بدأت، بغربة على غربة
clip de christophe willem
Un peu de francais alors?
et pourqoui pas!
One good song that will ever remind me of my frensh flat owner, yet another granadinian experience :))
Thursday, 3 July 2008
A picture and a comment...

For 3 euros/meal , the university of Granada students enjoy such a good food for such a relatively low price, everybody in Granada recommends the "comodores" to the students, I, however, don't go there all the time, prefer to do some cooking in my piso (flat).
This meal was fantastic, great spagetti (with ham that I had to take out one by one!), salad, most delecious fish fillet(I guess!), bread, and a desert..
Thanks Shahin and Milton for the good company!

My flat owner in his ongoing, never ending work in the patio of our building ( a small one, two flats on two different levels) , he wanted to know what the aya meant. promiced to translate all these phrases.
Now this is a typical decoration of the traditional houses in Granada, this is what one'd find in Alhambra palace a few blocks away. Its great to see that they consider this "traditional Granada"...

A "Fiesta!" party on the roof of what I call "The italians building". most of the people in the picture are italian students and we decided to do a babrbeque on the roof of the building, it was very hot, and at some point they started throwing water on each other.. fod was great and a grat company as well. this is one of these days that you don't forget easily.

Milton, George, Mariaaaaa...we were listening to our spanish friend playing the guitar, and we were taken away by the atmosphere and the beauty of it all, so that when he'd finish playing the guitar we'd simply do nothing..he'd start thanking himself and reminding us to do so..hence us laughing!

Ok, this picture has a story..
The guy in pink (Istvan) is from Hungary, he invited me to a (Botellon*) in the only place permicible to do so in Granada (The hipercor area), so we go there, and there are tens and hundreds of people with their drinks and snacks, basically checking eachother out and enjoying the weather and conversations.
The girls on the right and left came to us and as they wanted to go home they decided they'd sell the drinks to us, and Istvan decided its the perfect time for a photo!
And no we didn't buy the drinks, we hit Granada 10 instead!
Wednesday, 2 July 2008
Hola Mai!



You wrote a comment wanting to know more about Granada, and feeling some sort of connection with this city, well...you are right, you have to be jealous! and its really great to be here living as a "Granadino"
I will tell you why I love this city:
I wake up early in the morning after having slept on the roof, just like I do in Amman, but its the old jewish quarter that I live in, called the Realjo, I lean backward and forward and see glimpses of Alhambra, feel good and start my day.
Go to my university, few blocks away, through the roses planted Gran via de colon, I can take the bus or simply do a 15 mins walk...I prefer to walk usually, because suddenly I decide to take a left or a right turn and discover the inner streets and balconies of Granada people.
In the noon comes the Siesta, everything holds still and the city is silent again, the shops open back at 5 o'clock, I decide to go to the gym or cook like I ever do my Pasta...
In the night, its time to go out, TAPAS (read an earlier post) , is what people go out to do , they talk and talk and talk, and if they have some enegy left go and dance all through the night.
Mai, the arabic heritage is apparent here, but lets not forget that what makes this city alive as well are things that the spanish have worked hardly to have, I love good looking spanish women! I just find them stylish in a way...I love it when there is a wedding in a church, everybody is super dressed up and elegant..
You must come, I leave you with some welcoming pictures...